I'm really tired of pretending to have a happy and wonderful marriage.
I'm really tired of showing everyone that Joe & I are doing well.

I really wanted to let go, I really want to give it up.
Can you just let me go?
Can you just let me do the way I want?
Can just don't bother of what others say and how others look?

Every now and then you'll call and asked where and I, who I'm with. If I'm with Joe.
And you'll ask if everything is alright, and I've to reply accordingly in order to make you happy.
I've to pretend that nothing had ever happen in front of you.

I totally understand that you care and concern about me and my marriage.
But if things just won't work it out, why hold on to it?
This is not even the 1st or 2nd or 3rd time we talked about this matter...



I'm really tired...

Really, really tired...

Our life span is just too short for us to sit & wait.
Our life span is just too short for us to just work
Our life span is just too short for us to have a boring life.

There isn't much 5 years for you. You'll never know what'll happen to you 5 years later.
5 years later you might be down with some illness or may be too old to enjoy and try whatever shit you wanted to try while you're young and energetic.
Or rather, I should say - "You'll never know what'll happen to you the next day."

It happen to one of the sercurity from my office.
We're always happily smoking outside our office building, joking and laughing.
The next day, BANG. There he goes. He's now at his Neverland.
The day before he passed on, he's happily smoking and drinking with another sercurity from my office. But the very next day, he just moved on; to another world.

We really can't predict if we'll meet any mishap - never.
Anyone of us may just meet with an accident, that person may not die; but suffering with deep pain.

So... before anything happens to anyone of us, just be happy!! No matter what happens, just smile, laugh and enjoy your life.


*Jenny, let's make our plan come true!

I always love to people-watch wherever I am. Be it on the bus, walking on the street, chilling with my cup of coffee or even in a club.

Sometimes I wonder, does this particular person whom I'm looking at, is behaving who he/she is? Is that the real physical reactions?

Even if it's the person whom you've know for years, understand that person well, but do you think you really understand and know that person in and out? Do you think you know what he/she is thinking? Or have you ever wonder if that person is actually lying even when there's no special expression on the face and physical reactions showing that person is lying or not?

Human - are really hard to capture, hard to understand...

I dunno what to write. I do not know how to start.
I've got so much to say, but now I'm speechless.
My heart hurts. My heart is in pain.

Initally Jenny and I was planning to go States next year. But just few days before she said this

If we're going to States, why not go Maldives?

My eyes were as big as the fish ball selling at my office canteen. Though I'm going to spend at least 2k over at States, I was thinking "Hmmm... Since it's the same, and I can still go to States anytime. So, why not?" And I agreed to go Maldives with her next year.

So while Face-booking, I did some research regarding Maldives.




Approx. 3k (+/-) per pax for 4D3N stay @ Kani, Maldives. And that's for Beach Villa, low season. If we're going on High season that'll be 4k. Though it's 1k difference, I still cannot afford lah.. LOL...

While doing the research, I feel like going Koh Samui... And I did the research AGAIN for Koh Samui.





I want to go Koh Samui!!!!! I can forget about Maldives!!!!!! LOL!!!

Yes, planning... To go in 2010!!!! Save money and enjoy!!!!

Seems like I've got loads of updates to share with you guys..

Let me share what I've done at Sentosa few weeks ago..

Thinking of updating my recent photos and here they are...

Hey all!!! Long time!!

It's been 1 month since I last updated my blog.
Well, been really, really busy with work and well, some personal issues..

Aug I went to Langkawi with my colls and this month (or rather in Oct), I'm going to BKK!!
Will be rather busy for Sept & Oct.

26th Sept 2009 - Which is 2 days from now, 2 very good friend of mine are getting hitch!!
27th Sept 2009 - Company Team Building (Commitee for this event, update the story later).
29th Sept 2009 - Department Lantern Gathering
2nd Oct 2009 - Emcee for Company Golf Day.
3rd Oct 2009 - Going BKK.
17th Oct 2009 - A short get-away with my peepz from my department to Sentosa.
20th Nov 2009 - Going Penang for my coll's wedding (I need a partner, who wanna volunter?)

Talking about the Team Building for my company, I'm the one in-charge for the team list. And so, we've got close to 300 people in just the NCAE (Natural Cool Airconditioning & Enginnering) subsidy. I gotta put all these 300 ppl (or rather, 240 ppl as some ppl from another dept are not so supportive) into 16 teams. With poeple joining and leaving one of the department, which is also the most problem and not so co-operative people from there, I've got to change and change and change names from the list. Yes, it sounds so easy, but when I was required to separate Indians, Bangladesh, Burnese, Chinese and China people, with EVEN number of female and males EVENLY into these 16 teams, it's not a easy job.
Just by waiting those people to give a confirmation, also gotta wait up to 2 weeks. I really don't understand why these poeple just can put their hands together and work things out. It is really so hard to get everyone together on a Sunday morning just to have a gathering and know each other?

My department has no issue, Trading, NTU, Accounts and Call Centre have no issues, but just the Servicing Department. I really don't understand. Maybe cos their Manager and Supervisor sucks, SUCKS BIG TIME!!
Just ask them to do a very simple thing, they keep pushing and complaining... Tsk tsk...

Anyway, I'm doing fine, doing good. Though life sucks... But still I gotta move on!! I can't just keep on holding back and being moody and so on. That's life anyway... =)

It's been so long since I last update my blog. Guess many just lazy to come in and read anymore. Hahha...

Been in my current company for.... 5 months and everything is great. I simply love my colleagues to the core.
Thou there's many ups and downs during work, get scoldings from owners and tenant from the our project (I'm in the project dept, mostly handling condos project), but I still love the job and everyone in my department.
Now you'll be thinking, what I'm doing in the department. Well, I'm the in charge for maintainence for airconditioner for the condos. And I've to plan and schedule the services and attending complains (water leaking, A/C not cold and etc) for my workers and to plan a 12 - 18 months servicing schedule for the owners. So if owners A/C not working, not cold or wadsoever reasons, I've to plan the schedule for them. If owners cannot wait for the next few days, then I'll get scoldings from them. Mostly say that the weather is too hot, and they're "suffering" cos of the weather (as if they'll die without A/C and they do not own a fan inthe house".

Had encounter 3 owners who are unreasonable.
1. Had arranged my technicians to solve the problem on the very day he called, and realise that it's another issue which need to change the compressor. And ORDERED me to get my technicians to go to Daikin to collect the compressor and go back and change it (His appointment is 3pm, next appt is at 5pm). So when I told him that we're got no slot for him on that day, he screams and scolded me for 2 days and mentioned that Daikin do not have the parts is not his problem, which I have to solve it. So my technicians go back to his apartment the next few day and changed his compressor at night.

2. This owner A/C has NEVER done servicing before and water is leaking from her FCU. So she request to change a NEW SET OF FCU, which is out of the question. So she started to scream and making a big hoo-haa.

3. This lady here, made 3 people in my department really scared of her. Very stubbon lady, very arrogant and well, married a ang-mo. The story goes like this. From my record, it's been more than 3 times of such case, so we have to do a pressure test and check where the gas leak is coming from. So when I arrange my guys to go over and do it, and we got to change the insulation. So this lady owner said that "the rubber got a smell". ALL INSULATION HAS A SMELL YOU IDIOT!! And got scoldings from her for many times. Me, my engineer and my manager. Well, what to do? She's our client.

Ok, enough of my job. Now let's get personal.


Been going out with my sister for quit some time and things are getting better. We're like best friends, which never been like this before. Now, waiting for my little sister to grow up a little more and of cos, not as busy as now.

A lot of times things just ain't going smoothly from what you want.
Many things will go the opposite direction of what you want it to be.

The more perfection you want, the more it will go haywire.
The more you think it's perfect, the more unsuccessful it will be.
The more you want to make it beautiful you want, the more ugly it will be.

That's life....

Yes... Been a while since I last update my blog.

I'm very very busy with my work and every time I reach home I feel sooooo damn tired. So, pardon me for that.

I'm very happy working in my current company, esp the co-workers I'm working with. They're so different, thou we're all from different country [Yes, you want Indian, Burmese, Malaysian, PRC and Singaporean; you name it, we have it]. Though my work requires me to be on the line most of the time, get scoldings from owners most of the time, argue with suppliers, developers, main-con; but still, I LOVE IT!

Cos of the support from my co-workers. Muacks! Really love them deep deep.

My department has only 3 Singaporean [including me], let alone the 2 managers sitting inside the room. The rest are Malaysians, PRC, Indian and Burmese. They're a funny and crazy bunch of people. And from them, I've learn to extend my toleration to many things.
Learn a lot of technical terms from my technicians and engineers. Knowing what's a normal room temp should be, when A/C water leak should do wad, A/C not cold stands for wad, Error code from A/C means wad and so on... Too many things... Which really made me "Big Eye Open See"... =p


Anyway, will update again when I got back from my Langkawi from with my co-workers this coming MOnday!!

See ya guys!!!

While I was planning for my wedding reading thru Style Weddings; the bridal magazine, I hold my guts and submit the story and photos of my wedding shoot to Style Weddings.

After months past, I received email from them saying that they choose us!!

*No prize lah..... =p

Joe Tay, 31 and Jean Chen, 25

The couple met each other through a friend’s 21 birthday celebration about six years ago. Back then, Jean didn’t have a good impression of Joe. She had asked him to give her a lift and he replied saying she stayed too far away. Still, after a few gathering sessions with friends, the two starting talking. They got to know each other better and soon, they became a couple.

After dating for a few months, Jean started teasing Joe about when he would marry her. “Most of our friends around us were getting hitched,”

says Jean. “So, every night before he slept, I would ask him when he was going to marry me!” Then one day in September, Joe surprised Jean by bringing her to ROM and declared that he was
going to marry her at that moment. Jean was so surprised but she said yes! The couple had a Victorian red and black theme on 21 Jan 2009 at M Hotel. Their bridal outfits are from Style Bridal & Beauty.

Just as I've got the mood to do shopping, just in April, I've bought quite a number of things.

Labels: Confession of a Shopaholic.

When I made the biggest mistake I had in the past, you guys criticized me as bad as anyone can imagine. Now, you made a mistake and we can't say anything about you. You only knows how to be a crying cat and make a big hoo-haa out of a mountain. You only knows how to make a call to others and cry and relate the stories to people, and the people will call either one of us.

And, every time ask him "I let you choose lor, either she or me." Eh, buay sian ah? Keep asking this question. I know I'm not a very good daughter-in-law, nor a very good wife, but what about you? You're in no position you comment anything fucking thing about me!

Since you dislike me so much, I'll help you find Amy back as your whole damn family loves her!
She's the best daughter-in-law anyway, she helps your mum to cook, clean your house, talk with your mum, never make her angry, able to go shopping with you, able to tolerate your fucking irritating temper and personality, treat Joe also damn fucking good. Free maid!! Why not, right!?

So, since you keep asking your beloved brother to choose either you or me, why not you ask me? Ask me to choose to leave your god-damn family or choose to stick with him. I'll say..

I CHOOSE TO LEAVE YOUR FUCKING IRRITATING FAMILY, and leaving you, the fucking unreasonable SISTER-IN-LAW!